I've decided I need a safe place to vent about lupus and the changes it has forced upon my life. I don't like to complain so I'm just going to use this blog to vent once a week or so...only on Mondays. If the subject of lupus bores you, skip the blog on Mondays.

Lupus stinks! Before I was diagnosed I felt like crap but I was skinny...thanks to lupus. Now I feel okay sometimes, like crap the other times, but I am no longer anywhere close to skinny...thanks to lupus meds. I would love to wake up just one morning and not immediately count the hours til I can be back in bed. I would love to be free of needles and bloodwork. I realize it could be much, much worse. There are many illnesses worse than lupus. I just happen to have this one...and I will continue to have it forever and that is a very long time.

My family loves the lupus meds. Apparently I was a bit...tightly wound prior to these meds. Who knew? (Okay apparently the entire world with the exception of me knew) Now I am in a constant buzzed state...really. Not a bad feeling once you get used to it. The meds are supposed to help with joint pain. I suppose they do. Actually, I think I just no longer care that I hurt because I am buzzed. So I am a much calmer, less OCD mom these days. That is probably a good thing. I knew there was a plus side to lupus...I just needed to blog to find it. :)



So...in no particular order...the top 5 reasons lupus is a blessing.

1. Great meds that give me a legal buzz all the time.

2. Fewer ocd tendencies. In other words, I only dust every other day instead of hourly.

3. I already know what it feels like to have the joints of a 90 year old. No surprises when I turn 90!

4. Because I live in my drug induced "happy place" DQ's lack of volume control doesn't bother me...much.

5. I now take life a little more slowly and I remember to be thankful for the little things.